More Medicine!

We went to see the doctor yesterday and he slammed me with another medicine called Haldol. I’m already taking 5 kinds of medicine, how many more do I have to take everyday? But it helps to calm me down and for the first time, I slept through the night. For the first time in so many days, ‘Elm’ didn’t wake me up in the middle of my sleep. I feel so happy in the morning. But I didn’t feel like doing anything for the rest of the day. I just sat and stared at them for the whole afternoon, as Evelyn and mum walked around, busy doing their own stuff. I feel so useless, like a lazy bum. Why did I even exist? Only to be a burden, create troubles for mum and Evelyn. Even Esther has got something to do. Mum looks so tired. She seems to have grown older with more wrinkles. It’s all because of me.